Ron and I always knew we wanted children, but we could never agree on how many. The decision was made for us when we found ourselves unexpectedly expecting in June. What’s crazy is that Chloe knew I was pregnant before I did. One day she randomly said, “I think you’re going to have another baby in your belly.” Sure enough, I found out I was pregnant about a week later. I’ve always heard that children are intuitive when it comes to things like that, but I never believed it until now.
When we found out we were both shocked but so excited. I was happy that it worked out the way it did, and we would no longer have to have the whole “third baby” conversation anymore. Unfortunately, our joy was short-lived as I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks. This was the first time I ever experienced a miscarriage and we were both devastated by the loss.
After we had time to grieve, we decided we wanted to try for another baby. We were finally both on the same page and it felt really good. It didn’t take long before we found out I was pregnant again. The first few weeks were very nerve-wracking; I overanalyzed every little symptom and convinced myself I was losing the baby on several occasions, but now I’m 16 weeks along and things have been great!
I’m one of those women who absolutely LOVE being pregnant. I love the baby bump, feeling little kicks, and knowing there’s another life inside me. There’s nothing else like it. We’re both in agreement that this is definitely our last baby though, so the pregnancy has been bittersweet. I was so excited when I felt the first flutters around 12 weeks, but then it made me sad to think that I would never feel the “first flutters” ever again. We can’t become like the Duggars though and just keep popping out babies. Eventually these kids have to go to college (insert panicked emoji here). All I can do is cherish every moment of my last pregnancy and realize how very blessed we are to have two healthy children and another one on the way. I thank God every day for the life he’s given me.
Sidebar- I realize it’s been about 3 months since I’ve written a post. Turns out being pregnant with two kids, a full-time job, and a husband taking classes for his Master’s doesn’t leave a whole lot of extra time for blogging. I’m going to try to do better though- promise!